“You have brains in your head.
You have feet in your shoes
You can steer yourself
any direction you choose.” Dr. Suess
As I was leaving the other day, Kyle asked me what my goals were with Focusmaster. I quickly became aware that I didn’t really have any (or if I did, I hadn’t taken the time to think about it long enough to articulate them). He told me that I had to know what I was working toward, where I was going, in order to know when I got there. It made me realize how often in life I’ve probably failed to recognize my successes, how many times I didn’t realize when I was “there” because I had never stated my destination. So I began to think and after a few days of mulling it over, here is what I came up with…
I’m sure you are expecting a nice, easy, tangible answer, the kind that most people give, like…I want to lose weight. I want to be stronger. I want to have cut arms or a six pack or look good in a bathing suit. Honestly, for me, its not really about any of that. Sure all those things would be great (in fact, ideal) but they are in no way what motivated me to want to do this. Now here’s the part where we go from trainer to therapist but let’s face it, there is always a psychological side to any work out, right? Even if its just the escape from life for the time that you’re there. So, here are my goals:
I want to commit to something that has no gain or use for anyone else but something that is just exclusively for me.
I want to do something where my successes and failures are judged only by myself, where I have nothing to prove to anyone else and no one else gets to determine my worth.
I want to be happy in my own skin and I don’t know what tangible goals it will take to achieve that, if any, it may be all mental.
I want to see what I have and what I can take.
I don’t just want to just show up, I want to conquer this.
In the end, I want to be validated by my own accomplishments to myself and no longer by anyone else’s views. I have spend too long letting other people determine my worth and although that can suffice at times, its a high risk situation. Giving someone the power to bestow that upon you also gives them to power to take it away.
My destination… I want my power back.